Havent wrote one of these in a while, I guess its about time again. I dont really have much to tell aside from Im going nowhere in life fast. No job, can't drive, my bf is still a few states away in cali. So I got nothing but cats.......... and my trashed room. I've been trying to get a job, well filling out apps anyway but no luck on that so far. My school bills are due in jan so if I dont have a job by then or at least by mid dec Im gonna be forced to go back to school -sighs- My parents see me, now, as the black sheep and have given up on me. the only help or I'd guess attention I get is from my friends. No use trying to you know communicate with Kevin 'cuz I can never bloody find him. I'd swear he's worse then that where's waldo game. I haven't talked to him in over a week, yeah that might not seem like much but then again the only thing keeping the water (love), if you will, from evaportating or getting soaked p by the grass is TALKING or typing on the computer, which is like the container for said water................. no container.......... no relationship really. I'd hate..... I mean really.... REALLY hate for our relationship to go south like that, like everything else in my life, if you can call it that, but I dont know what to do. Anyway Im a few strands of "luck" short from being kicked out or shipped to my g'mas so i have more stress and depression then I know what to do with. I mean I broke down on mom today before she forced me to go driving. Im quite at a loss, got no nothing to try and strive for. Eh well Im tired of whinning about my pathetic life so that's gonna be it from me for.......... who knows how long...